This year started on a great note. I remember us sitting in the shade high up in the mountains enjoying the cool (extremely cool-almost cold- we were wearing sweaters) weather during lunch time sipping piping hot balsam tea and thinking “we could get used to this!” Little did we know that there was so much more in store for us because the next day we found ourselves in the middle of a fatal car accident where a lot of damage was made and an animal lost life. An accident so complex even I can’t fully fathom what happened and let alone explain it. I am a person of a few words(speech-wise! I tend to babble a lot on paper and computer. Ha!) and whenever I am asked how I feel, I give the usual ‘fine’ because I am not really sure I can explain the emotions within. A great miracle happened and I find myself most often wondering: What would the world be doing if I were dead?, Did I deserve to be saved? Am I even worthy of the abundant grace shown to me? I know by my own self I am not and this is why I am grateful for everything. It’s easy to get wrapped in the everyday and not realize life is frail. What happened has taught me to value what matters and to be grateful. And so I am GRATEFUL:
that God is God and that He is a loving God.
for this life
for this year
for the past year
for my family
for all the regrets
for all the challenges
for all the triumphs
for all the joys
for all the haters
for all the letdowns
for all the tears
for all the laughter
for all the silliness
for all the humiliation
that I can still sing
that I can still sing about how great God is
that I can walk
for all the challenges
that I can still write in this webspace
for my siblings
for the neighbors
for the heartache
for all I have been through
for the air I breathe
for everything for it makes me who I am and my life and it’s all part of a process I am destined to be.
Happy New Year friends and I wish you the Lord’s blessings in everything.
Lots of love plus a smile
5 thoughts on “What Life Is…”
A nice post acknowledging and showing gratitude, but why would you write “Did I deserve to be saved? Am I even worthy of the abundant grace shown to me? I know by my own self I am not and this is why I am grateful for everything.”
Do you really think that God said, “Well, I think everyone is worthy of being saved except Sophie there, but what the heck, as long as I’m saving, might as well include her, kind of like a two for one sale.”
I firmly believe we are all here for a reason whether it’s apparent to us or not. I believe God loves and cares for every single one of us or we wouldn’t have been born. I also believe that we are worthy because if we weren’t, we wouldn’t have been created.
So Sophie (I love that name by the way), please remember you ARE worthy of being saved because you are loved by God and you can’t get any better than that, right?
Thanks for pointing that out. The reason I wonder “Did I deserve to be saved? Am I even worthy of the abundant grace shown to me? I know by my own self I am not and this is why I am grateful for everything.” is becasue I know I am not better than anyone else. I am a sinner. I mean alot of people die every day and its not becasue they are worse or better off than anyone else and so I find myself amazed at the unconditional love of God.
I totally agree with you that we all have a reason for existence.
Thanks for dropping by
(PS: whats your name? If you dont mind my asking!)
Maybe I’m misunderstanding, or it’s a possibility that we are saying the same thing except from different angles. Did you deserve to be saved because you are Sophie? Deserving implies that it can be earned. We can’t earn our birth and I’m not sure we even earn our physical death. Can we earn salvation? No. How can we earn what’s freely given? Are we worthy of the grace given us? Yes. My view is that God created each one of us because He loves us and that makes us worthy.
awesome piece. I love every bit of it. God be thanked you’re still alive. Happy new year.
God indeed is great.